What You May Not Understand
If you read my post Free Falling, you know part of my battle with depression and anxiety. It’s been more than a decade since I was first diagnosed as clinically depressed and it has been quite an interesting journey. I’ve become more candid about my struggle because I hope to remove some of the stigma. But there are some things that people without mental illness may not understand.
You may not understand that it isn’t a choice. I didn’t choose to lose my mind and fight with everything God gave me to get it back. I would give anything to not second guess my sanity on a regular basis.
You may not understand that what may seem like not a big deal to you, is a huge deal to me. And you telling me it’s not a big deal doesn’t help. Anything. At all. Ever. So stop. Seriously.
You may not understand that telling me I’m too emotional doesn’t help. Anything. At all. Ever. I need you to let me feel every emotion that I need to feel because eventually I will see things clearly.
You may not understand that I’m going to advocate for other people who are like me. We are often misunderstood and many people would rather not deal with us. But somebody has to…with love and empathy.
But when it’s all said and done, even if you never understand, I know God does.
Until next time…