Mama Bunkfish

Navigating marriage, motherhood, and mental illness on Jesus, caffeine, and naps!

Apology Accepted

I woke up this morning in a horrible mood. Between my unresolved throat issues, hot flashes from said throat issues, and my children waking me up in the middle of the night, I wanted to punch today in the face.

Later in the day I found myself having to apologize for things I’d said because I allowed my bad mood to tell the Holy Spirit to shut up. (You know exactly what I’m talking about don’t you?). In that apologizing I also had to forgive myself. You see I realized that I can’t move forward in my life if I’m not willing to forgive myself and others. Nobody’s perfect; but if God can forgive me in all of my wretchedness then who am I not to forgive?

Let me be clear…this is not easy. I am a ‘Justice Seeker’. I’ll harbor anger until I feel a person ‘gets what they deserve’. But there’s two problems with that: it’s not my place to execute justice and I’m being disobedient to God if I don’t forgive their wrongdoing as well as forgive myself.

Physically I still feel a little blah. But my spirit is feeling tip-top.

Until next time…

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