Mama Bunkfish

Navigating marriage, motherhood, and mental illness on Jesus, caffeine, and naps!


About three weeks ago I was telling my husband that I needed a break from life. Not an eternal break…I just needed things to slow down. Things seemed like a whirlwind on all levels and I felt like I couldn’t catch my breath. As is my typical fashion during these times in life, I lay in bed one night and started rambling to God about how I just needed to figure some stuff out…

Fast forward to today. I’m one week out of getting sicker than I’ve been in a while. I ended up getting sent home from the doctor last week with sincere instructions to rest and take care of myself. As I drove back home I had to laugh at myself. My favorite scripture, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30), was coming to fruition…in a strong way. I ended up having to stay home from work and play for three days. THREE DAYS of doing nothing but what I felt like I had the strength to do. In that three days I cried, sent long text messages about my internal struggles and frustrations, watched a lot of TV, slept, prayed, rambled to God (my less coherent version of praying), and thought.

You see, as I continue on this journey with God, I’m realizing that what He wants is for us to serve Him. But we can’t do that if we’re so busy serving ourselves and others (OUCH…I hurt myself there). I don’t know about you, but I get so caught up in thinking I’m serving Him with the ‘stuff’ I’m doing for other people, whether it’s my family, friends, coworkers, church, etc., that I haven’t stopped to see if that’s what HE wants me to do. Then I end up tired. No, actually exhausted…sick exhausted.

And in typical God fashion, when you’re His, and you go to Him, when He’s ready, He’ll give you the rest you need. And He’ll show you where to redirect your energy. Don’t get me wrong, you’ll have your tired days, because the physical body can only handle so much. But when I need rest…I know exactly who to talk to.

Until next time…

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