The dreams were always the same. In one I’m in the passenger side of a moving car and I’m frantically trying to get in the driver’s seat. My seatbelt won’t come undone and my legs aren’t long enough to reach the brake. It never occurs to me to just pull the emergency brake. I wake …
Category Archives: Mental Health
The Heart of a Child
Back in late February Josephine decided she wanted to be baptized. It took me by surprise because at the time she was only five and after talking to her, she eluded to the fact that she wanted to do it so she could be like my niece (who she absolutely adores). Honestly, I was skeptical. I …
Out from Under the Rock
I haven’t written in a while. I lost count of the number of days and stopped checking my stats for fear that I would see nothing. I can’t pinpoint the exact moment where I ‘lost my voice’ but things have been, for a lack of a better word, crazy. Between the sick kid and husband, …
Go Shawty, It’s Your Birthday
I absolutely love birthdays. I celebrated my 18th birthday not long after my husband and I started dating and he thought it was crazy that I got so excited. When he turned 18 the following April I threw him a party and have made every birthday special for him since…and it’s been 17 years. As …
Winter Wind Down
The recent warm temperatures have ticked me off which is hilarious because I am a walking contradiction…I hate being cold but I love the cold weather. The seasons and what they bring have done their Jedi mind tricks on me for years and this year especially I’ve been affected. My life is somewhat chaotic. Not in …
Lose Control
I’m a recovering Control Freak. As I lay in my bed one night, eight months pregnant with my daughter lamenting about how she must be born at a certain time, my husband kindly told me that I didn’t control anything. I wanted to punch him in the face. Not because he wasn’t right, but because …
What You May Not Understand
If you read my post Free Falling, you know part of my battle with depression and anxiety. It’s been more than a decade since I was first diagnosed as clinically depressed and it has been quite an interesting journey. I’ve become more candid about my struggle because I hope to remove some of the stigma. But there …
The Prednisone Diet
After coming back to work this past week from my hiatus, a coworker asked me if I’d lost some weight. I laughed and said I had, thanks to the Prednisone Diet. For me, depending on the dosage, Prednisone makes me lose a lot of water weight. And while I love that I can breath and …
Wake.Pray.Live.Pray.Eat.Pray.Sleep.Repeat.
About three weeks ago I was telling my husband that I needed a break from life. Not an eternal break…I just needed things to slow down. Things seemed like a whirlwind on all levels and I felt like I couldn’t catch my breath. As is my typical fashion during these times in life, I lay in …
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Music to my Ears
Mary J. Blige’s ‘My Life’ was released in November of 1994. I remember when my brother brought it home-for many years he would buy me Mary’s CDs when they hit the stores-I sat and listened to it for hours. As I went through years of teen angst I would turn to that CD, and many …